I sat in the dining hall of the ATO house on Wednesday night and typed the final word of my seminar paper for English 452. Then I typed ".". I looked up and around me and back at the computer screen and focused on what I had just written. I said aloud to myself, "That's the last bit of work I'll ever do again for the University of Mississippi." The feeling was surreal, and still is. I really have been trying to grasp onto some sort of way to describe how I feel about all of this, being done with college, with definitely the best four years of my life so far.
The lifestyle that I had so immortalized in my mind in high school is over, done. I guess I had always been looking forward to this, as in the past four years, and never thought about the years beyond. I think we are trained that way, to prepare ourselves for college in the hope that college will, in turn, automatically have us ready for life, a career, family, you know, America 101. I assumed exactly that, that I would not have to think about the future beyond which classes to take, that I would just be "ready". I'm not, honestly. I'm excited and interested to see what the future holds, but am I ready? No. I'm prepared but I will never be ready. Ready to give up studying subjects and taking classes of my choice which interest me, while being surrounded by the best friends who I will ever have, with the freedom to do almost anything I please within (almost always) the law? Never. But then again, if I did not leave now, when could I?
"No one who puts his hand to the plow and looks back is fit for the kingdom of God" -Luke 9:62
So I guess it is just that time. Time to hang up the college hat. Time to say goodbye. Time to make some new friends, I am starting to sound like Ecclesiastes here, but its true. It's just time.
The following are all pictures from the past four years from our camping to my pledge brothers to time at Julie's farm to our Korean friends to Mark's birthday to formals to geocaching to intramurals to bid day to last summer in Jordan to gatorbashes to snow in Oxford to my first trip to the Middle East to our dog Dexter on Christmas to the epic road trip with Michael, Brady and Markus to more fraternity parties to Rome spring break to even more fraternity antics to Peru with dad and finally to pictures at the house before I left for college:
(From the most recent):
The lifestyle that I had so immortalized in my mind in high school is over, done. I guess I had always been looking forward to this, as in the past four years, and never thought about the years beyond. I think we are trained that way, to prepare ourselves for college in the hope that college will, in turn, automatically have us ready for life, a career, family, you know, America 101. I assumed exactly that, that I would not have to think about the future beyond which classes to take, that I would just be "ready". I'm not, honestly. I'm excited and interested to see what the future holds, but am I ready? No. I'm prepared but I will never be ready. Ready to give up studying subjects and taking classes of my choice which interest me, while being surrounded by the best friends who I will ever have, with the freedom to do almost anything I please within (almost always) the law? Never. But then again, if I did not leave now, when could I?
"No one who puts his hand to the plow and looks back is fit for the kingdom of God" -Luke 9:62
So I guess it is just that time. Time to hang up the college hat. Time to say goodbye. Time to make some new friends, I am starting to sound like Ecclesiastes here, but its true. It's just time.
The following are all pictures from the past four years from our camping to my pledge brothers to time at Julie's farm to our Korean friends to Mark's birthday to formals to geocaching to intramurals to bid day to last summer in Jordan to gatorbashes to snow in Oxford to my first trip to the Middle East to our dog Dexter on Christmas to the epic road trip with Michael, Brady and Markus to more fraternity parties to Rome spring break to even more fraternity antics to Peru with dad and finally to pictures at the house before I left for college:
(From the most recent):
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